Taking it back to the old school…..

Well maybe not back to the old school but I’ma take it back …. back ….. back to January of 09.  LOL (PS I’ma take the Dew approach to blogging – I’m going to type and if it comes out right so be it … if not so be it – it is what it is)

Hummm where to start – January was a good month.  The “Official New Year” start to Account Angel.  Although I started years ago (2004 to be exact) 2009 marks the first year that this is ALL that I will be doing.  No more punching the clock – no more getting up at 5 in the morning – no more…… or so I thought!

Starting your own business is definitely a paradigm shift (we will get into that more when we get to November) and I don’t think I was prepared the way I thought I was.  Support – yea I got it but not the way I thought I had it.

Attending church in Cincy – Inspirational Baptist – 4 times a week.  Monday Praise Dance – Tuesday Bible Study – Saturday 6:00pm service – Sunday 8:45am service then again at 11:00am service.  Needless to say – it was not only wearing me thin but my poor 1995 Astro had just about had it.   The solution … find a church closer to home.

I didn’t really want to leave because I went to jr high with the bishop and I just felt as if we had a connection that was like no other.  He knew me – from “way back when” I had a jeri curl and there is just no escaping that but I had to sit back and think… am I going to church for the right reasons.  Was I going just to hear him preach (and he IS GOOD) or was I going to get my praise on?  I finally admitted to a little of both but it was more so him than anything else.  Yep – definitely time for a change!  Need to work on building my relationship with God not with this church that I was becoming more and more attached to.

Fast forward to March (Feb was a blur full of work – normally being an accountant Feb Mar and April are my busiest months) but there was a shift in March that I want to mention.  March marked the month of the end of the relationship classes at Marriage Works!  (Yepper – that’s a WHOLE NOTHA POST SESSION) maybe I’ll tell ya’ll about that after November! LOL

March was also the month of searching for a new church home closer to home.  After visiting many MANY MANY churches – one even locked us in because the tithes and offerings only amounted to about $150.00 (pure CrAZineSS!!!!!) I think (or thought) I had found the right one!

Attending PT was a suggestion/invitation from my mentor at Marriage Works (everyone needs to go there for counseling/education) He is the best (you will see why I put HE and not THEY in another month).   PT was the friendliest church I had ever been to.  I mean – it was truly like family there.  The kids loved it (a HUGE PLUS) I mean even N loved it!  She couldn’t wait to get dressed up on Sunday to go to service (that NEVER happened before).  Not to mention – I knew about 50% of the congregation from school or other activities I have participated in throughout my 32 (31 at the time) years.  So long story short – I enjoyed myself.  Their youth ministry was really good – the teen ministry was really good – and the service! WOW is all I can say!  Did I mention the girls loved it?  Yea -the girls LOVED it!!!

So you may wonder why I am speaking in PAST TENSE…… hummmm

Are you for it?

“Sitting here listening to Joel Osteen before I get my day “officially” started and I started to think…..  Well to start off, I am extremely anal in the morning – I wake up, pray, use the bathroom, listen to a recorded Joel Osteen episode or one of Bishops sermons on DVD/CD, then get my day started.  Most of this happens within the first hour or so of opening my eyes for the day! ….. ok well back to what I was saying before I got off track – listening to Joel Olsteen and I had a revelation!  Have you ever heard something over and over but you just didn’t “get” it.  Well I had one of those AAAHHHHHAAAAAA moments this morning!  Last night I couldn’t sleep (partly because I was reading blogs and partly because I had a LOT on my mind) but Joel said some stuff to me that really HIT me like a ton of bricks.  He said – and I quote – “the setback is a setup for a comeback!”

HUMMMMM now let’s think about that in it’s entirety – set back ….. set up ….. comeback ….. Now I remember Bishop saying that same thing in a couple of his sermons but again – it didn’t HIT me like it did when I was sitting on my couch watching Joel.  I need to work on myself and my faith.  I went to an optimist club meeting 2 weeks ago and that was one of the BEST meeting I have been to in a LONG time.  I mean – when I got there, I could instantly feel the upbeatness (is that a word) and I wanted to be part of that.  So much so – I talked to the president and asked him how I would go about starting an Optimist club in my city (I was about 15-20 miles from my house and in a whole different school district) and I know that the children in OUR city need these services too!  Well TMALSS – we got together to discuss how I could go about starting an O club.  To start I need 35 dedicated people to join.  Ok – sounds easy right right – well that’s what I thought!  Calling around (chamber, city schools, local businesses) I was hit with a rough reality – a lot of people want to talk the talk but when it comes to walking they – don’t have new shoes – they don’t have the time – they don’t have the money to join!  What?!?!?!  Are you flipping kidding me?!?!?!  This is our future …… (you will soon come to find that I am EXTREMELY passionate about our children!) the people out in C’Ville understand this!  They make time to do! The find the money to help!  ARGGGGG  Singing “just keep on praying ….. just keep on praying….” (in the tune of Dory from Finding Nemo)

Ok – back to my original posting – set back, set up, comeback”

This is an interesting post because I started it on January 30 of this year – has it really been that long since my last post?!?!  I guess so …. and I have a lot to say peoples!  Strap on your seatbelt cause I’m bout to take you on a Fantastic Journey …..

Has it always been this hard – part 2

Sitting here thinking about what to do – I start to pray.  “God give me the wisdom to do your will and to love others as you commanded we love each other.  God I want to follow your will and your way and I know what needs to be done so…why is it so hard.  I know that if I let go and let you do what you do – all will fall into place..but I feel that if I am letting go ….. I am no longer in control”  This is a daily battle for me – how do I let go?  How do I stop doing what I have always done?  How do I step out on faith? How do I ….. “Pray on it my child – ask me to guide you – tell me you need me – let me know that you appreciate every little thing I do – talk to me – invite me into your life – every aspect of it – talk to me like you talk to your friends, family, loved ones…. love me”

So what do I do – I’m nervous about the schools (let it go)

I’m nervous about the RTA (let it go)

I’m nervous about what the future holds (let it go)

let it go ……. let it go ……… let it go ……… I surrender to you God ……… take me and mold me ……… I know it will hurt but in the end ……….

LET IT GO and LET GOD

Has it always been this hard?

Good day everyone!  I don’t think I told you but I have 3 beautiful girls – we will call them R, N & J and a significant other of 13 years (LONG STORY for another post) we will call him T – and they are homeschooled.  NO not by me!  but we have a private teacher.  Now before you get off on the whole “you booji (sp)” kick.  YES I went to public school and YES I am good but these school now are cut from a totally different cloth!  Have you visited the schools lately!?!?!?!?  WOW is all I can say!  Well – our decision to HS our children was one that was inevitable and when we started and saw the progress – there was no denying it!  N.E.W. (anyways) I talked with R (she’s 13) and she REALLY wants to go back to “regular” school next year.  She will be a freshman so I am considering it!  So me being the parent I am, I checked out the schools (pop up visitor) to see what she would be faced with!  Again WOW is all I can say!  After visiting the school in my district (there’s one high school here) I decided this was not going to work for me.  Now I know Nish is reading this and she is saying “Angel – you need to let go, she is growing up blah blah blah” and I agree that I can’t shelter her for life BUT DANGIT DANA!!!!!!!!

Ok – so we (T, R & I) decided on a school (after LONG consideration) and went to orientation and started the paperwork process.  We have completed that step and I am excited right along with R – that is until I find out (from an unnamed source) that the RTA (Regional Transit Authority) ride to and from school is WORSE than school itself!  WTH (what the heck) so now I am going to take a ride on the bus to see what is really going on ………. this post will continue!

So here we go……

Hello there everyone – I am new to this so please be patient!  HUMMMMM what to talk about first – well this week was interesting.  I just discovered that everyone (except for me) has a blog so I decided to get one too!  I also just got a FaceBook page (yea, I’m growing up)!  LOL  Back to my week – started pretty good all except for the snow.  Now don’t get me wrong.  Born and raised in Dayton – I KNOW what’s going to happen during the end of January beginning of February, so I was not surprised at the least.  What I was surprised at was how the “city” handled it.  Watching the news I realize that levy’s haven’t been passing and they are about out of money but come on – do we have to wait until someone gets in an accident before salt trucks are sent out???  What EXACTLY is that about?!?!?!?!

I could get off on a whole different tangent about that but that’s not my purpose here – this is my first post so….. I’m going to take it slow.  I have a lot on my mind and I’ll take time to post it all ….. eventually!

Hello world!

Well I think I posted my first on the wrong header but OH WELL…  You know I was sitting here thinking about my past week – dealing with all that has been placed before me and all of my life situations and I have come to one conclusion ….. I have issues!  LOL  yea I know that’s an “old school” term to hear it from R but I really feel that way.  I have had so much happen in my life over this past year that you would not believe.  Too much to even talk about and not that I even want to bring it all back up but GOD IS GOOD!  I was sitting here reading “The Shack” earlier and I have gotten to the chapter when Mack decided to fully trust and forgive Papa and Jesus and listen to Sarayu.  I am so trying to get to that point in my life – I need to stop worrying and trust that as long as I follow and have faith that all will be well.  But why is it so hard?  Why is it hard for me to just let go of some of the things that I have taken on that really don’t concern me or my life?  Why can’t I “Let Go and Let God” as Mr Woods sings about in his song?  I have tried and it seems that as soon as I have gotten to a point where I am trusting and relying on Papa – the devil comes rearing his ugly head and messing everything up.  I read in a blog earlier (thanks DEW) that all sun and no rain makes for a desert!  I can definitely see where this could pose as a problem.  We need the rain to make the sun shine even brighter.

So do you have your umbrella?